I’m about to be 17 in November, idk why my age has to with this.

I have been with my boyfriend for 13 months. Today marked 13.

But everytime me and him fight it’s like it’s flipped back to me being the bad one in the process.

Example:

When he cheated on me for the second time, and he broke one of the promises I made before starting the relationship.

I would talk to him about it and obviously I’m upset, and I do have a temper. Also I made a promise to myself that I would change in my relationships and I would change for him. So I have never actually been yelling and screaming like how my ex’s were in relationships, I try to show him zero anger.

I was uncontrollably crying when he cheated on me again and I was saying what the fuck and everything like that. He got upset I said that and his reply was ,” I know it was stupid. Okay, I know. I’m sorry. Right now, I’m trying to help you feel better and all you’re doing is preventing me from doing that whenever I try to help you, you bring up this which meant nothing. You come and bring this up so how do you think that makes me feel?”

Now I’m just confused because he says this

Every

Single

Time

We

Fight.

Also I had a lot of abuse from past relationships with gaslighting.

So I just want insight.