Venting

We all hear it on here, ladies who have TTC for year and years and nothing..then there’s the few who after 10+ years finally end up pregnant...

But then theres ME

The small percentage of idk where tf I belong in the TTC desperation group.

Long story short I tried for at least two years with ex husband (who cheated) caused me to foreclose on my home, and file bankrupt..nothing happened. Was in the process of talking with a fertility specialist but he didn’t have the same “goal” as me when it came to this. (WAS WORKING WITH FERTILITY SPECIALIST BEFORE I FOUND OUT HE WAS PLAYING ME)He is current remarried, (1 month after divorce was final)and his wife is pregnant.

I am happy for them I am..

But I’m engaged, been TTC for 11-12 months and NOTHING. I just feel this wave of desperation and heartache to the core. I can’t afford

IVF

though I’m working with a RE clinic about 2 hours from my home. I just search for the reasons I’m having to suffer like this.

Side note: diagnosis poly cystic ovaries & fiancé had bad SA. To top it all off the previous provider had me on Clomid for 4 months straight which exacerbated the cysts.