It took me and my husband 2 years to get pregnant 🤰 we struggled with waiting and having so many test done to then finally getting pregnant I was so excited that I was finally going to be a mother. But as soon as I saw that plus sign I was scared and worried but now that I think back I don’t think it was a normal feeling. My whole pregnancy I was always worried about my little one no matter how much dr’s told me baby girl was ok I still had this funny feeling in the bit of stomach. I developed GDM and went through that the end of my pregnancy but managed to control it very well but still had to do injections at night. When my baby girl was finally born I was so happy but then again that funny feeling in the pit of my stomach. I knew I was a new mother but I had been around small babies all my life and something wasn’t right. I kept taking my baby girl to the Drs for a rash she had then she started vomiting 🤮 I was terrified not knowing what was going to happen we went to the ER and were admitted right away but not for her vomiting but because her blood count was down. The next day we got sent out to UCSF and they had the hardest time figuring out what was wrong with my 2 month old daughter. Finally two days later all these Drs came in and looked at us and deep down inside I knew something was really wrong! They looked at me and my husband and said your daughter has leukemia! After those words came out of there mouth my whole world came crumbling down. I had my baby girl in my arms and I held her so tight and never wanted to let go. Im still completely crushed with the type of thing my daughter has to go through at such a you age. I felt like my motherhood was being stripped from me. But no matter how hard all this has been she is still the most happiest and joyful little girl and that smile she has after everything she’s gone through gives me hope. Thank you to anyone who reads this I just had to vent this is the first time I’ve talked about our story to anyone.