I'm over a year into recovery and almost 7 months pregnant.

My life has made a 180° turnaround, which I hold on to with great resolve. I decided my life has been horrendous enough that I want, would, can and will do whatever to live a better one, but that being said, I'm still learning how to take care of myself first.

So, when I was reached out too by an old acquaintance and saw for myself consistently that they were on a better path with their children in tow, I did not hesitate to agree to babysit when they asked. There was an agreement of money and food for the children (30 lbs 9 month old, & 4 year old) for the DAY beginning at 7am.

When I arrived I was flabbergasted, they were high! The house looked condemned! I decided I'd go to my family's with the kids to get them out of there, little did I know what they did, their children had streptococcus A... After they left, the baby's sniffle quickly turned to a fever and diarrhea and I immediately called the parents, who did not answer. They left me with their sick children for 16 hours and didn't pay for services or food provided.

Now, I have strep AND bronchitis, added to the fact that as a recovering addict my immune system is especially compromised on top of being pregnant and have staph in my blood that comes back offten, and now of course.

I'm so angry that I didn't leave when I recognized they were high. I can't ever self-sacrifice myself like that again because it's not just me, my baby suffers too!