After three miscarriages last year - one at 13 weeks - we have been trying so hard to conceive again.

In 10 days time it is my husbands 30th Birthday.

Every month I ring him to say ‘sorry darling, not this month’ - it breaks his heart and mine, every god damn time.

Last month he took me on a surprise ‘baby making holiday’ - all expenses paid and it was fucking amazing.

I wanted to surprise him with a positive pregnancy test on the morning of his birthday.

But guess what?

Is negative. I’m two days late and it’s stark fucking negative.

I even went all out and brought a bloody First Response.

We start <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> now according to my doctor.

Please send some positivity. I can’t do this anymore.