I feel compelled to tell someone about what happed to me as a young girl as I have never ever told anyone. For a very long time this has played on my mind and I need to get it off my chest...

When I was 13/14years old I went to camp with Army Cadets (I’m in the Uk) to Wales, whilst there being a typical young girl I wanted to hang around with the older boys. This one guy took a liking to me, he was 21years old & he took me to a pub in his car to get a bottle of vodka which we both drank although he was prompting me to drink more obviously...

Once I was drunk he took me back to a empty domorty (?!?) and locked the door so I couldn’t get out or anyone in, he laid me on the floor, sat on my chest with my arms pinned to my sides so I couldn’t move, lifted up my top and masterbated over my chest/face. There was no foreplay or words spoken. I didn’t know what was happening so I just let it happen.

I had never had a sexual encounter before this day - the most I had done was kiss a boy. At the time even though the whole experience frightened me I kind of thought what happened was cool and I was really grown up but over the years (I’m 35 now) it’s played on my mind how fucked up that was, I went on to have a very warped view of sex & how I let people treat me which I honestly think stemmed from that experience. The thought of him now literally makes me angry and my skin crawl.

I read all your stories and honestly what happened to me was very low level compared to what some of you have been through and that really makes me wonder how it must have affected you - my heart goes out to anyone in this group x x x