Struggling - all advice welcome

Amy

On month 6 now ttc. First baby was an “uh oh” baby about 4 years ago and now I am struggling with how hard it is to conceive. AF is late by 3 days, 2 BFNs. One on day 1 missed and 1 today. I know some ladies journeys have been much longer than mine but I am starting to really think negatively. How do you ladies stay motivated to keep trying? Sex has turned into a chore. I decided last month to not do opk or bbt and to just try naturally, my husband was convinced it was the pressure on me... but now that the month is over and it’s not looking very well, idk how to remain hopeful. Everyone keeps asking me “when are you going to have your next” and it’s so defeating! I want to just cry.