Can I rant?

So I’ve been seeing my parents more recently in the last week and a half since I did when I first moved out. I made it a point to start hanging out with them since we always spending time with my in laws(yes I have favorites, I will not apologize for that).

So my mom calls me yesterday to talk about stuff I had going on with my doctors appointment and I was on speaker since my dad was with her.

We are having a good convo and catching up on the last two days when I tell them I’m setting up an appointment to get my two new tattoos. (I have 10 and multiple piercings.) They asked where I was getting them and I reluctantly said my arms because I know how they feel about it but it’s my decision and I’m tired of seeing my self harm scars. They had a lecture for me and fine whatever I sat through it and was nice.

Then my dad says, “when are you going to go to church?” He knows full well why I don’t go to church and it upsets me that he pushes the issue. I have an uncle and an aunt with cousins from their side that I didn’t know existed until I was almost out of high school. I never knew they existed because my paternal grandparents along with my dad disowned them due to them being Protestant. All I try to do is make my dad happy and be good for him. I am in college and in a degree program that I don’t like because he asked me to do it so I literally used to do anything to make him proud. Since I met my boyfriend he’s pushed me to be independent and be me which is partly why I am getting the tattoos I’ve wanted for years now. I’m just upset and now worried my dad and my brother are going to disown me because I don’t go to church and have no intentions of going back.

Anyways sorry for the rant.

Oh and btw this is the same man who wouldn’t let my best friend who is a black male come to the house, ever because he was worried I would have feelings for him. 😒

Just because you go to church doesn’t make you a good person.

I’m done now. Thank you for reading.