Is it over

I feel like im losing feelings for my boyfriend. We’ve been through so much negative stuff recently. And being around him really irritates me. I don’t feel comfortable. All I can think about is him cheating. Hiding things from me. There’s no trust. And because I don’t trust him- I’m always thinking he’s doing something behind my back. I really wanna lose feelings and be good friends with him. Like i want to break up without losing him . Being in a relationship is just ughhhhh😫. Words can’t describe

Update-

Or maybe a break to see how I feel without him. I didn’t think of that