Sexually confused?

I’m gay. Always been. Men do not attract me. Women make me joyful, gitty, dorky, loving, and men simply don’t give me the same effect. Can’t see myself with a man bc I’m simply not physically attracted. It’s disturbing and disgusting to me no offense but I met this guy whom I feel so comfortable with. Joyful I found a patna so relatable. But today I felt sexually tempted by him. I don’t know what it was..but I did. I’m scared of the feeling. He tried cuddling with me and I just started crying at first.. but then I felt loved in a way..I personally just like cuddles..

I don’t know if I should act upon this feeling, Experiment, or shut it down..

I feel confused in my life for the first time with my sexually and i don’t like it. I dislike fake gays & i refuse to be one myself.