After coming in fir what I thought would be a normal doctor appointment only to find out my baby was I distress and I would be having an emergency c section my emotions are all over the place. Some days I feel happy greatful and blessed other days I’m sad , sad I couldn’t have a natural birth sad my baby is almost a month and I’m not around for her. The first week I spent my whole day with her but I didn’t think she’d be here this long so I cutback to a few hours out my day . I was taking Zoloft for my anxiety and often blame myself for her premature birth and Birth defect of an extra thumb and hole in her heart. Nobody understands I get told just be happy she’s alive .and my husband job has given the opportunity to create his own schedule until she’s home but he’s pretty much doesn’t take advantage of that so I feel no real support right now. I just want my baby home 😞