So, I’m fairly certain I have the WORST luck ever.

A year ago, my hubby and I decided to start TTC. It was time for my yearly anyway, so I went to my appointment.

Appointment #1: doctor dropped me from her caseload because me TTC would be irresponsible and stupid. (I have POTS & spondylitis)

Appointment #2: New doc, got records from old doc. Find out my Pap smear was bad and I have HPV but can still TTC with approval from other docs

Appointments #3 & 4: high risk dr & cardiologist give the go ahead so I quit taking my 6+ meds to control my daily pain.

Appointment #5: Colposcopy....not good

Appointment #6 & 7: LEEP & check up. Things look good.

Appointment #8: Yearly. Things look great. Officially can TTC again (oops....we never stopped TTC)

Phone call: bad pap

The cycle starts all over again.

We just want a baby.

Why can everyone else have babies with all of their problems, but two married adults with great jobs and a loving home can’t?!

Angry. Pissed. Sad. Terrified. Let down.