Hey guys so there are 2 guys in my life right now... both of them wanted me at some stage but now that i like them they dont want me.

Boy 1: Sam

Boy 2: liam

( not their real names)

Okay so sam and i have been talking since march... ive known him for 6 years but he was in a relationship whith a girl that wouldnt let him talk to another girl hence why i only started talking to him now as they borke up. Ive had a crush on him since the day i met him and honestly thought it was a dream come true when we started talking. A month later he friendzoned me and it broke my heart. Although we still talked constantly and flirted. He told me he liked someone else and i know the girl as well. Shes super pretty and i dont blame him for liking her. Everyone that knows both sam and i are tryna get us together but its not working. I still have really strong feelings for him but he doesnt for me. We both know that there was a lot of sexual tension bewteen us so we decided to have a friends with benefits relationship which works really well at the moment. Every now and again we get really close and he is so nice and then he will push me away and wont talk to me for like a week and then he will start talking again and apologize for pushing me away he just isnt in a good state of mind. It hurts and makes me upset that he does this

Now boy 2: liam

Ive known since the beginning of the year. He had a thing for me while i was all over boy 1 and sadly when i started reciprocating these feelings he didnt like me like that anymore. He is super sweet and pays for things for me. He is adorable and won me a stuffed toy at the royal show! We tell eachother we love eachother but as friends. There is sexual tension between us to but we dont do anything. We keep talking about doing stuff but it never happens becuase his best friend has a massive crush on me. Liam and i talk all the time and he is so sweet but has friendzoned me as well.

My point is... i don't know what to do cause i have feelings for them both. I dont want to stop talking to either of them. What do i do?

thanks for reading this essay ahaha xx