Like the title says, I'm due Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a>, and panicking a little about it. This is my first baby. This is also my first Christmas married to my husband.

The hospital is an hour away from my house and my baby boy is consistently measuring 2 weeks ahead of how he's supposed to be measuring. I know it's best for baby to stay in as long as possible but I'm freaking out a little because I REALLY don't want to be in the hospital on Christmas or worse, go late and be there on New year's.

I'm praying that baby boy comes a little early so I can be home and recovering on the holiday, especially since I'm already in such bad pain with my back. I already had back problems before getting pregnant and problems with hip pain and as we get closer to the due date I'm just in more and more pain to the point I can barely sleep.

I expressed all of this to my doctor/midwife and she basically told me that she doesn't like to induce until 41 weeks, which I understand some doctors have their preferences, but I feel like she should at least take my concerns into consideration! Especially since I found out she's not even going to be here after the 20th to deliver my baby! 😒 She's going on vacation! I'm just getting really unhappy with how my doctor has been being the whole pregnancy, since day 1 she hasn't really listened to a word ive said, she's told my to go to the lab for tests and forgotten to order them so I sat there looking like a fool while the lab techs tried to find orders that weren't there, she's just been rude in general to me and my husband, and I've wanted to switch doctors but I just saw it as too much of a hassle since she has all my appointments scheduled all the way up until 4 days before my due date.

Basically this just boils down to I'm freaking out because I don't want to be in the hospital or fighting holiday traffic on the way to the hospital on Christmas, and I'm also worried she's going to try and force me to give birth late with a 10 lb baby which I'm a tiny person.

Long rant end

Edit: I forgot to add that my husband works overnights and we only have 1 car and he only has his permit because he's working on getting his license and I just don't want him to be at work and then I have the car and I'm not able to get to him or him get to me and then him not be there when I give birth. There are just so many things running through my head freaking me out and I don't want to be freaking out because I don't want to stress out the baby but at the same time I'd feel so much better knowing that I was going in for a certain time to have baby and I knew that nothing would get screwed up and my husband would be right there. I hate so much how far the hospital is away from my house and there is always so much traffic on the way there because it's in the city. The best my doctor offered my was membrane sweeps at 38 and 39 weeks. I'm also scared that with him measuring 2 weeks ahead he's going to be huge if he staying in too long and I'll have to have a C-section like my mom did with my sister. My mom and I are the same build and everything, my sister was only 8lbs and that was even too big for my mom to give birth vaginally with her.

I hate having all these things going through my head but I can help it and it's really starting to stress me out.