I dont know who actually cares about reading this but I just need to vent to people I don’t know bc the people I do know don’t actually give a shit. My heart is completely broken into a million pieces by the one person I thought could potentially be in my life for a long time. I’ve put every ounce of energy and time into this man who knows just how badly I’ve been hurt in the past. His words and his actions don’t meet and I’m so tired of constantly questioning our relationship. I shouldn’t have to beg for attention. I should just get it. I shouldn’t have to ask for reassurance. I should just get it. I shouldn’t feel like a last priority. I should be the first. I feel like my heart just finally healed from my past relationship and I’m just so not ready to go through this pain again. He tells me he loves me so much but then ignores me for days. We broke up before because of the same reasons and he promised me that as long as we’re together, I’d never feel this way again. That last for about two weeks. We were so strong in our relationship, so healthy, and then it’s like one day I woke up to someone I don’t even know anymore. How can you treat someone so poorly and claim you LOVE THEM?? Sorry for the rant but I just needed to let it out. And to end this novel on a lighter note, I’ll be sure the next man I’m in a relationship with WILL APPRECIATE MY BOMB ASS BOOTY PICS!!!!