Needing Strength

Lost my baby two months ago. My husband just sent to load the boat for deployment at the beginning of last month, he got to come home for a couple of days before they left for Norway right before I ovulated. I’ve been really nauseous and my back has been hurting for the last week. I still have eight days before my period I supposed to come so I know I can’t test yet, but I have so little patience. I feel like because I want it so much it isn’t going to happen. I’m still hurting and the one person in the world who could help me is in the middle of the ocean.