At work, trying not to cry

I just used the restroom at work and that pre period discharge was there. It's been 9 months... we've paid for a <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> every month and it's killing our bank account. The various medicines are making me crazy. Last month we had a chemical and I think that's what pushed me over the top,to be that close. I'm having so much trouble holding it together. I still have 3 hours left at work and it's taking everything I have to hold back the tears. Does anyone have any encouraging words?