I've gone off my birth control back in January as the first step to TTC.

It was a big deal for me. It took months of thought before I finally felt ready to do that.

I feel more ready than ever, but have days where I think:

I don't know how ready I am

I don't know how to deal with a screaming baby

What if I don't like them

My cycles have never been normal and getting off birth control, they're still abnormal. I might just be having an off day because my pseudo period is maybe around the corner, I also spent the day with my SIL and her 5 month old baby who was having a cranky day so I feel like all the more negative thoughts are piling up more than usual today.

I want to have kids but some days I wonder why

And questioning myself makes me wonder if I would be a good parent anyway