Pregnant & hopeless

I recently broke up with the unborn babies father & I’m feeling incredibly hopeless. He’s unable to see that it’s for the best as we were constantly fighting to the point where I was cramping, crying every night & having anxiety attacks which just isn’t healthy for anyone. I also realized I conceived one night when I had passed out priorly explaining that I didn’t want to be touched & would like to rest unfortunately I awoke to him having sex with my unresponsive/sleeping body. I’m feeling scared, ashamed & alone. I honestly don’t know what to do. This is also my first pregnancy I wasn’t supposed to be able to conceive naturally if at all. It went from being so beautiful to this feeling I can’t shake. It’s unfair energy to be put on this little one.