Beyond depressed

Ashley • I have two children.trying for a third hoping to concieve quick

I had my D&C done on Thursday because my baby stopped growing at 8 weeks this is my 5th miscarriage and I’m just so confused and heartbroken and before going into this pregnancy I had decided I was going to get my tubes tied if it went wrong well now I’m second guessing if I want to or not my husband really wants me to but in my heart I know I will regret it if I don’t go see another doctor and get more testing and just go on birth control for a year and just let my body heal I’m not a person to just give up and throw in the towel when the going gets tough I am in counseling I am back on my depression medication but I just can’t help but lay in bed and cry I mean I do have two wonderful children 8 year old and 3 year old so I am blessed but I just can’t give up on my rainbow anyone else went through this many I would like to hear some stories and have some hope