Part 1

My abused started when I was 3or 4 years of age. My mother (whom I think was abused when she was younger) started asking me weird questions and started checking my lady parts constantly, she would often asked me if someone touched my lady parts. When low key I felt like she was the one harassing me, come on a kid doesn’t have those kind of thoughts until they’re like 12, so then it escalade to her having sex with her husband right next to me, I mean can you really trust your kids to be sleeping and you humping someone in the same bed (you could’ve done better mom), then this supposed to be brother they picked up from the streets started touching me and telling me that it was ok (mind you I was like 5) then one time since I’m a little girl who can barely dress herself I get home and my dress was not buttoned well my mother thought I had gone with some men she put me in the bed and checked me and ask me this whole lot of questions, when nothing had happened, then one day her husband takes me into their room and he starts asking questions to the point where he shows me his dick, my brother was watching tv on the other room and he saw something suspicious so he told my mom (which she swears he didn’t) and I remember they broke up and we move to some place else, and everything seem so nice, but I was already a fucked up child ( she went back with her ex) and this guys starts showing me porn videos where an old man is touching his little daughter, little did I know this wasn’t normal I started watching porn movies around the age of 7 or 8 years old. I’m from a foreign country there’s literally no limit to the kind off movies you can buy. My stepfather had all kind off movies which I had access to, my mother was an overprotective person who only cared about herself, I remember her leaving for 2 or 3 days and leaving us with the man. She give up my older brother and stay with just 2 of us. She used to work night shifts and my brother was in charge of almost everything she never help us do some homework she never care about us in school but till this day she swears she has done everything for us.

Meanwhile her ex was changing me mentally he had porn of women’s fucking horses, of old guys touching little girls, and he would often tell me to touch him, then comes my fuck up cousin, he started telling me that I should be having sex by this age and that everything was fine and that it doesn’t hurt 😞 he try penetrating me more than once, I had no trust in my mom because all she used to do was hit me and yelled at me, every time she find something odd she would question me and then punished me.