Ok so it's me again...just sort of panicking and being so stressed and anxious that I have to put that into words here sorry :(

So I had two miscarriages..one at 6 weeks (baby was 4) and then they didn't find heartbeat at 12 week scan so had to take tablets to miscarry.

At present, we got lucky really fast after second mc and I am about 6 weeks pregnant again :)! Really want to be happy but I can't make myself...it's like living on a ticking bomb. I am scared to death that it will happen again. I feel anxious and really stressed and feel like I don't even want to go to see midwife or to go for a scan. I know I have to but I'm petrified!

I barely have any symptoms but I had different ones with each pregnancy now only peeing a lot, super tired all time, always was really fit now walking two miles is like mission impossible 🤣. Got slight nausea but not to the point I need to be sick, eat for ten, bloated and feeling heavy in my abdomen, nipples a bit sensitive but not too much. I'm just keep looking every single symptom and keep saying I need to have them all really bad as if I don't it's a bad sign.

Every time I'm going toilet I'm checking for sporting - nothing for now thanks God 🙏🙏🤞🤞

I don't know what to do and how to relax a bit...I wish I could find out and make sure all is ok and I will finally be a mum! Some said get early scan but it can be food on this one and then on my 12 weeks one it can be bad news so yeah...just scared :(

Sorry for that just had to say that thanks for reading ladies 😘💕