I'll just jump right to it...

My husband runs his own construction business. (Building houses) He works sun up to sun down. He will often stay after work is done to socialize with home owners and/or go pay or get paid by someone or go to bid a job. There's days when he comes home after 11pm (sometimes later but this doesn't happen often) I've known this is how he is and how his work goes since we've been together but lately it's really getting to me. I'm an insecure person, always have been and I just get worried. I love him so much and I do trust him but lately, I just can't shake these terrible thoughts of him "going to bid a job" when really going to see another woman. Even though there is absolutely no reason for me to think that! We have a very healthy sex life (minimum 3× week, usually more), he tells me I'm beautiful/pretty often, talks about our future together, and always keeps me in the loop with what he's doing for the night, usually with a phone call.

Any others out there with SO's who are gone a lot? What helps you cope?

We have 2 little boys, (18 months and 6 months) so I'm unable to really go anywhere/socialize/find a hobby unless I get a sitter. I work full time as well. It's just getting hard! Ugh, I hate these thoughts running through my mind.

Sorry this got so long and thank you in advance for any and all replies!