I’m on day 5 of bleeding, it’s getting really heavy and painful now. I know it’s expected to be upset but I just feel like I can’t let it go..like it wasn’t supposed to happen to me? I had less then a 12% chance and it still happened. I don’t even know how to cope, what I’m supposed to do anymore. I’ve only missed one day of work for it, because I don’t see a point at staying home. I’m depressed and I can’t stop eating. I’ve already gained 20 pounds in the last 9 months?? I went from 150 to 172 and I feel disgusting, ugly, and now depressed and upset. It’s like I can’t catch a fucking break. Just needed to let it out.