I JUST WANT A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP 😢

im 21 weeks pregnant and EVERYDAY I STRESS OUT BECAUSE MY BF IS AN ASSHOLE blames all his attitude and rudeness of his "anxiety". doesnt bug him one bit to see my struggling with something and him to just there and watch. he blames everything on me and says sorry like 20 min later just so he feels better inside. hes a boy not a man and i cant handle it no more ! i have no friends or close family to vent to i have nobody and i feel so alone 😢 i feel like if he continues this ill lose the baby and i wont be able to live with myself ..