I just want to feel beautiful pregnant

Me now

When I had my daughter I was 180 and went all the way up to 230 when I delivered. I’ve to yoed since than and when I got pregnant with my son (I’m 22 weeks now) I was already 250. I’ve only gained 3 pounds but I can’t help but feel hurt when people say I didn’t even know you were pregnant- even now. It just makes my self confidence plummet. I felt so empowered and beautiful with my daughter and I just feel like a blob now. I’m already worried how I’m going to look postpartum and if my husband is going to be disgusted and divorce me. My sil is also due a week after me and she is half my size. She’s said some pretty rude comments to me and it’s hard not to compare. I already look like I did at 42 weeks with my baby girl. Do any other moms feel this way? I almost feel like a failure as a mom and a wife 💔

Me at 5 weeks