I'm very angry, jealous and hurt.

I have a step sister who is 6 weeks older than me, she is 23 years old.

She has just announced she is pregnant with her 5th baby, she has custody of her first 3, gave her 4th to her mum because she couldn't afford to care for him and now is having number 5 at 23 years old. She has no job, baby daddy is in and out of prison and he is apart of a gang who associates around the house with the kids home. She's constantly begging dad for money saying she can't afford food or school supplies, yet she's always dressed in expensive clothes, has money for drugs, alcohol and smokes. Lost a rental from not paying rent etc.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is am I right to be jealous, mad and upset.

I tried 13 months for #1 and have been trying 11 months and going for #2. I just want a big family, I have lots of love to give my kids and so much nuturing to provide.

I don't think it's fair.. It doesn't look like I'm getting pregnant anytime soon, why are women so fertile when they can't provide and why not use protection when they can't provide for kids.

Why can't I just be pregnant.

And I have no relationship with this step sister so I definitely won't be happy for her, I am just worried for her kids.