So we’ve been married a little over 2 years, and when we first got married he liked having sex with me for about 2 weeks.... and then it was once a month and he made it seem like a HUGE inconvenience for him to have to do. And there was never any foreplay or cuddling or any of that sweet stuff girls like.

Several people told me before that he may watch porn and that’s why he doesn’t want to have sex, but I never believed them because I just didn’t think he was the type....

So basically he was gone for a bit and left his phone, and it chimes and I went over and it was just an email or something but I’ve been feeling so disconnected lately that I was starting to think maybe he is into porn.

I found a truck load of “collage babes bang” and “ son cums on his mom” and some other distasteful stuff.... I wanted to vomit....

But I was also relived because at least it’s just porn and not that he hates my guts, or is in love with someone else...

Then I started thinking he may not be in love with someone else but he has allowed porn to trump me even though he can see how upset I am and how I feel like I’m not enough for him and I get so depressed that sometimes I want to die because I just don’t feel like I even have a place in my own life.

I just don’t know what to do.... I feel relieved but also totally destroyed.... and I’m not sure how to talk to him because he will be mad that I was in his phone...

I feel lost. I don’t even know what I should be feeling.

I know that I haven’t felt REALLY loved by him for a long time. And not just in a sexual way... in a emotional way. I don’t know how to live with this. He’s not the type that will change even if I did talk to him about it.

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