Single mom blues

I’m having single mom blues right now. I just started my period yesterday, so I’m pretty sure that’s why I’m so emotional. But my 9 month old has been running a fever for a few days. He’s teething. Last night, he stayed up until almost 2 am. I was tired, hormonal, in my feelings, anxious, & he would not sleep. He finally went to sleep in his crib. He then woke up three hours later to eat & then three hours after that. I’m just feeling so overwhelmed & depressed & lonely. His dad doesn’t help much at all. His grandma is the one that asks for him but she can’t even get him most weekends bc she works 12 hour shifts in the plants. My mom is the one who helps me the most with him! I love being his mommy & it’s the best thing in the world. But last night, it was all just too much! I was crying & thinking about how tired i am & how he won’t go to sleep & how his dad doesn’t have to worry about being up late with him & changing poopy diapers at 1 in the morning or soothing a child with a cold, how he can do what he wants when he wants with NO worries. Me on the other hand, I’m talking to this guy & we’ve been really connecting & have great chemistry. He knows I have a baby & he understood that I don’t want my son meeting him yet. He said he totally understood & he just wanted to meet me somewhere in a public place since we’ve been having such great convo! It sucked bc I really wanted to meet him & see him but I couldn’t bc I had to take care of my son & had no one to watch him. It’s like so much I wanna do & cant bc my baby boy comes first, as he should! I just feel like I’m missing out on so much. I’m only 23 & I see all these other people on my Snapchat & Instagram just having the time of their lives & im sitting at home with my baby. I love bonding with him, but we all have to admit, it can get really lonely when it’s just u & baby... I’m also so sad bc I am just longing for a lover & someone to help me raise my son! This guy I’m talking to is so understanding & I didnt hear from him at all yesterday. He told me he’d be busy the night before but I still wanted to hear from him. He said he’d be with family & had a funeral.. but he was watching my Snapchat & he posted on there in the middle of the night. I feel like he could’ve texted me back. Idk, I think it’s my period & it’s just making me think about everything all at once. & it has me so sad & just down right now. I’m also stressed bc I’ve missed two weeks of work already bc I caught hand foot & mouth from my baby boy & im still being affected by it. Now that he has a fever, I may have to call in AGAIN tomorrow.. it’s just so much right now .. i wanna be in love & i want someone in love with me, i want his dad to help more, i want financial help, i want a little me time on the weekend so that next time my friend wants to meet me or go on a date, i can do that, i wanna have fun, i just want a little more.. my baby is my everything!!! But i don’t wanna forget about me & just let my 20s slip away from me.. I need encouragement ladies.