Holding on to hope


I miscarried in July at around 10 weeks (missed miscarriage at 7 weeks 6 days). I got pregnant again in September and had our 2nd scan this past Tuesday (8 weeks 4 days). Everything looked great, and we saw the baby even move , with a 167 bmp heart rate. I am 9 weeks 2 days today. I have been symptom heavy with sore breasts and throwing up almost everyday (either Good or just gagging). I even gagged today. Today through I started the afternoon with crazy diarrhea, that went on for hours and haven’t really been able to eat all day. The last few times I went I saw blood in my stool and then after a few more times of going I wiped blood from my vagina and passed some clots. I’m grasping at straws and praying it’s not what I think it is. My heart is telling me it is bc my breast soreness subsided. I don’t understand how it happens so fast. I was so sick just yesterday. I woke up in the middle of the night last night with really heavy heart palpitations that made me sit up also. I’m sure it’s all related. I’m just in a state of shock. Can anyone relate? Has anyone gone through similar and it turned out ok? I’m devastated. We go to get a sono in the morning with my doc bc I don’t have the nerve to go to the hospital right now. I’m still traumatized from July when we went twice.