Expecting my rainbow baby. 🌈

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So in May of this year I found out I was expecting. Unfortunately later on in June I ended up miscarrying. It was devastating and we were torn apart. We honestly werent trying trying like before like with OPKs and temping and all of that. I kinda just went by the app and that was it. Each month after my miscarriage my period would show and I'd silently be a little heart broken. Then October came around and I had been so busy with work and everything else that I haddent realized my period was late a coworker of mine kept pointing out the fact I was peeing so much compared to usual. One day she told me to buy a test and I just chuckled and was like theres no way I'm pregnant blah blah. Well I decided to just suck it up and buy a test just to prove to her she was wrong and I was just peeing more. So I go home after work that night and dont even wait until morning and I take the test and bam instant positive. I couldnt believe it. I was in shock. I pulled out another test and bam positive. The next day I got a digital just to be on the safe side and bam positive. I could not believe it. I ran out the bathroom into the living room to where my boyfriend was and excitedly threw the test at him. He picked it up and just smiled from ear to ear. So ironically after having a miscarriage in June of 2018 my now new EDD is in June of 2019. So my rainbow baby is due one year after the loss of my angel baby. I'm so beyond excited and happy yet terrified at the same time. I'm terrified to go thru the same thing over again. I've honestly never wanted anything so bad in my life. But I do know God always has a plan. What that plan might be idk. But he has one.