At my wits end

3 days till AF is supposed to come. Having absolutely no symptoms which is okay but I wanna test sooo bad! But I’m to the point where I never wanna see a negative test again in my life so I guess I’ll wait to see if I’m ever a couple days late.. 😞 it’s been a long depressing road these last 6yrs. I long for a baby so bad after miscarrying. The one thing women was put on earth to do & I can’t do it. I know I’m not alone & all you ladies who feel my pain I hope you get your miracle one day ❤️