I just can’t.....

my ex and I have been broken up for a year, I can’t get over him. I’ve been with other guys but nobody makes me feel the way he did. He was my best friend, we’d fall asleep on ft together, he’d make fun of the dumb shit I would say vice versa. We were more like best friends than anything else. Lately I’ve been crying like I never cried before for him. He wants to be free and live his life and I respect it, but I love him so much. He means the world to me. I won’t write him, that’s not a good idea. I just wanted to get this off my chest... 😞😔💔