Hey ladies, my husband is completely pro vax and I have been anti vax from the beginning of my pregnancy. I never even considered vaccines until being pregnant this time. I had a miscarriage last year after an internal ultrasound that I was told was 100% safe and during my mourning of that loss I found many other women who lost their babies after transvaginal ultrasounds in early pregnancy too. This made me start questioning medical advice and believing in anecdotal evidence. My husband was never on board with my belief that the internal ultrasound caused my miscarriage which was pretty upsetting to me.

Now I am 30 weeks along with our son and I have tried to mention my stance on vaccines many times, often my husband doesn’t want to talk about it because it leads to huge arguments since he is demeaning with his responses calling me a tinfoil hat wearing conspiracy theorist and he always finds a way to make the documentaries and articles I show him seem wrong. I feel so alone and it is making me very depressed. The other night, I probably shouldn’t have, but I told him I would run away and disappear if he won’t get on the same page with me as far as vaccines, he’s been very upset with me since and I just feel worried that he is going to try to vaccinate our child without my consent (which would really make me leave him) or that we are going to be having these arguments after our child is born which I don’t want to have that kind of negatively around my son. I love my husband and I think this should be the best time of our lives and it’s turning into the worst. I don’t have many people to talk to about this, his sister is somewhat skeptical of vaccines but she also feels “if god gives her an autistic child, it’s because she can handle it” and she isn’t convinced the two are related.

I just feel so unhappy and stressed and depressed because the one person in the world who is supposed to take my concerns seriously and trust my judgment as a mother is treating me like an uneducated idiot. I don’t really think I need any more links to try to show him the truth, as I have many saved up to show him if he’ll listen, I just need support and someone to talk to. Have any of you been in a similar situation?