Shallow...

Ugh, I just want to cry! I get that I'm supposed to realize that my body is creating a miracle and just be happy, but I find myself very upset tonight. I'm 36+5 today and all of a sudden I'm being taken over by stretch marks. I've gained 50 lbs of pure fat. It's really hard to be this uncomfortable and feel this insecure about myself. Some people just get so lucky during pregnancy and I'm just jealous. Not one stretch mark, perfect skin, tiny bump with minimal weight gain... Then there is me. Maybe I'm hormonal today, but I'm having a pity party about how sad my body is gonna look after this baby. 😔