Feeling uncomfortable after coming forward
I finally told my parents about how I was raped and blackmailed multiple times and they made me file a police report. While I was filing the police report I was so uncomfortable with the questions like if I was sure it wasnt consensual (even tho I had indicated I was under the influence of drugs) and also how did I know it was rape and all that. I've been so anxious these past two weeks and I feel like my world is caving in. I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest. No one is being supportive at all towards me. It's like the big elephant in the room. I finally got a call today about my case, and just the detective asking me if I wanted to come in and call him and ask about why he did what he did to me, made me so emotional. Her asking about why I stopped contacting him, me to describe him, if I wanted to press charges, and why I waited a year to say what happened to me. I feel so anxious I can barely breathe at times. I feel so uncomfortable in my home, my bed, my own skin. My dad told me I should feel empowered, but all I feel is humiliation.