Hi, I was just recently at a gathering with some friends and they had asked me a question about the first time I did anything sexual or received oral. As I was telling them they told me that I was basically pressured into the act in which I was but idk if it’s a bad thing because as a teenager you want the sexual experience right? I’m not sure how to explain but here’s what happened. And can you guys tell me what you think.

What happened:

At my birthday party I invited a couple of friends to a hotel party to play games and just kick it with eachother. Everyone had dates too if you know what I mean, but I did not. so I called up this girl that I had been talking to for a while (I’m female 2 btw ) she comes to the room and we are chillin getting to know eachother, because mind you we never hung out before but we are friends of a friend. Anyway my friends leave the room to go back down to the pool area winking at me telling me to get some in a joking but serious tone. I told them I’ll be down in a bit because the girl I was with wanted to talk some more privately so I said cool. When we were in the room she starts kissing on me and telling all the things we could do and hey I enjoyed it and told her maybe one day but not now and she says “awe why not it’ll be fun” I was excited to hear that but I just couldn’t see myself doing anything with this girl because I don’t know her and I didn’t know if she’ll expect me to go down on her either so I just said no I wasn’t interested but she started kissing me and saying hey it’s your birthday let me make you feel good and In that moment I can just hear my friends voices saying go for it or what the heck or hey she offering and take the offer.!so she basically pulled my pants down and started eating me out I didn’t really enjoy the experience, I felt like she was going to a place no one was supposed to be but I liked the girl so far so was this okay?

Oh yeah and after when we went back to the pool I tried to keep a distance away from this girl because it feels awkward and uncomfortable being around her its like she is undressing me with her eyes but she is so attractive idk what to think it’s really no big deal, tbh I took it as a learn and move on type of thing.

Sorry guys I’m bad at explaining things