I will probably never be on here again!

We don’t be meeting our baby boy in March and my heart is in pieces. From the moment I hit 12 weeks things have gone bad and the quality of life my son would have would be so unfair to him and I would never be selfish enough to bring him into this world already fighting to breathe and stay alive!

This is my 4th pregnancy and for whatever reason that I will never understand god has chosen to take away the precious gift of life from me!!!

I have never wanted anything more than to be a mom but sometimes what we want isn’t in the cards for us!!!

Monday will be one of the most difficult days I will ever face but I’m strong and so is my fiancé and we will get thru this!!!

I hope as time passes it will ease my pain & one day my heart will heal as well!!!