So I started talking with someone a couple weeks ago on tinder. We've gone out a couple times and tonight we probably would have been fully intimate if I wasn't on my period. We did mess around a bit but in random conversation it was mentioned in bits and pieces that we may want different things, but it mainly came up when I said I didn't share well with others when it comes to men in my life. I should say that I move at warp speed, and I do forget that everyone else doesn't 95% of the time. I'm a lot to handle and I'm sensitive as hell. Things got a little awkward towards the end, and I'm embarrassed to say I got emotional when I was leaving. He said we are going to continue to see each other and later we can talk about what all that means.

Have I given it the kiss of death? I would really appreciate anyone's tips on how to just chill out and take things as they come. Especially if you felt like this ever. I am fully aware I'm reading way too much into this, but I'm honestly just so emotionally exhausted from consistent disappointment and I've kept to myself for months because I couldn't bare to do it all again. I thought he told me at the beginning he was looking for something more real but maybe this is his way of letting me down gently?

I'm just low right now and I needed to get it out. I'm 26 and some days I feel like this is all I'm ever going to achieve. I know it's only been a couple weeks but I have the patience of a flea. I'm working on it. Thoughts? Prayers I don't end up a spinster? Good vibes? I could use them.