It all started in April when I woke up one morning with light nausea so I automatically thought pregnancy test! I took one, and it had that faint line. I immediately ran into my bedroom to show my sleeping husband. The next day we had our blood work and it came back positive for pregnancy. Oh my goodness.... I was so excited that I couldn’t even wait to tell everyone and the world at just 5 weeks pregnant. It was the best news I had ever received. 2 weeks later in May, I had bad cramping.. then the light spotting was to follow. So I had my hcg checked it was 1043 then 1057 two days later.. by then the bleeding had begun too. Obviously, the best and exciting news I ever received turned into a nightmare. The worst news I could’ve ever thought. I had just had my first miscarriage. Thankfully I naturally passed the baby but it was painful, Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually and every other way you could think. I was mad, sad, depressed and just darn right angry at God.. why? Because I felt like He took away the baby I so dearly wanted. I’m a Christian, I go to church every Sunday, I would pray and read my bible sometimes, so why me? How come some women have full term pregnancy when they don’t even want their baby.. but I did! I was upset. It felt so backwards. But my miscarriage was the thing that drew me closest to God. I became hopeful, optimistic, comforted and I felt His love like never before. It was the thing I unfortunately needed because I now read my bible every morning, I desire His presence in my life 24/7, I rely on Him for everything and more, I pray and talk to Him all day. I know miscarriages are sad and hard to get through but I also know it happened for a reason. It became part of my testimony. God is good.. all the time. The good days and the not so great days! Stay hopeful and most importantly place your trust in Him ladies! I’m praying for every broken heart out there! ❤️