I've always had depression sometimes it hides but it never goes away. As you know TTC is hard for people who have fertility problems I'm not sure if I do but its been almost 2 years I haven't gone to a doctor I know I should but it might just be the end for me. Its 4am and all I'm thinking about is how a baby would bring me so much love and hope for the future but its starting to fade. I'm nothing I'm no one. What does my future hold?