How do y'all deal. (POSSIBLE TRIGGER)

Ok some background on me. Hi my name is marisa, I am married to my best friend of 11 years. I've always wanted kids always but have had some issues with it....before my husband I had had 5 miscarriages..... from previous relationships and ironically enough he was the one who helped me threw with them. Well we got married fast lol we had both been in horrible relationships he had fallen for a different girl and she got pregnant and she dipped and took his kid with.... well we started dating in July of 2017 and got married September 2017 lol and shortly after I found out I was pregnant.... well just like the rest a month later I had another miscarriage so that makes 6.... well some hard times and me basically giving up on the dream of being a mom and a year later I found i was pregnant again.... well the second i found out i was pregnant i was in an ob office basically begging them to make sure this one sticks.... well i hit 20 weeks and finally started to get excited.... it took me sooo long now I'm 34 weeks and almost to the end and all I think about is what if hes a still birth what if I fall or get into an accident. I'm so paranoid that something's gonna happen to him.....to the point I'm over here dying of anticipation. I'm ready to have this baby and hold him and I just I'm struggling with being pregnant because I just want to have him here.... I didnt even have a baby shower because I was so paranoid something would happen to him and I'd have to just disappoint everyone and the hardest one would be my mom shes so excited shes picked out his coming home outfit and shes got stuff for her house for when we visit mind you I'm her only child and she wants to be a grandma so bad.... I love my mom to death and before anyone gets the wrong idea about her she was in an accident t that caused her brain to forever think like an 8 year old child so my mom isn't all there so to break her heart like that I just I couldn't do it. I'm just really having a hard time being happy about being pregnant without just wanting my baby here already so I can calm down a bit with the stress. I guess that's my main question is how do you cope with the anxiety of having to wait