I don't know if this is appropriate to post or what I don't know. Im sorry if it's not.

I normally don't bring personal life into a forum. But I guess I'm just looking for support. Or something. My mom and I never got along. She's verbally abused me since I was little. When I was going through stuff she wasn't there for me. She blamed me for being raped. That I asked for it. He forced to send pictures and that ended up all over the school. She said that was my fault too. She says I deserved that I was physically and verbally abused by him. After being raped I went into depression and self harm. Things really went wrong and I attempted suicide. I was in a detention center and a psychiatric ward. I went through hell in there. It cost my family alot. My mom had a high paying job. Really high pay. They let her go because I was on suicide watch after I got out and couldn't be left alone. She couldn't go to work/show up so they fired her. When I was diagnosed with Panic Disorder she wasn't supportive. She didn't try to understand. My dad works over time, we never seen him because he is working and mom never go it a new job because that's just how she is. We are are in possible foreclosure now and I over heard her talking to a friend that it was my fault. Is this really my fault. I didn't ask for any of this :'(