So, my husband and I have been married just over a year. We are so much alike, we love doing the same things.. hunting, fishing, calling coyotes, shooting stuff, hiking etc. Well about 2 months after getting married we found out we were pregnant. I was scared but excited as I had always wanted a family. He never wanted kids but opened up a little bit as I got farther along. Fast forward a few months. He got a new job making great pay but has to work terrible hours alternating days and nights. He has quite a few days off in between so we would always go have fun and do the stuff we loved. Since our daughter was born it has decreased, which is to be expected. We would occasionally go drive around the desert and do a little bit of hiking. But now he always takes his dad to go shooting, or calling coyotes. Every day he has off he goes out to do something like that. While I want him to go have fun and enjoy his days off I am getting a little envious and irritated that I no longer get to go. He doesn’t see taking care of our 3 month old as a job. Literally I never get a break. And on top of taking care of her we are trying to remodel TWO houses, but who is doing that everyday?? Me. I am. I am beyond exhausted, emotional and frustrated. I just want to go out and have fun with my husband like we used to. Just for a couple hours. I just want to be included in his fun, but it seems like taking our daughter is a burden to him. He is not a bad father by any means. He loves her and is great with her. No he doesn’t change diapers and feed her or get up with her at night but he always spends time with her after work and will entertain her while I try to eat dinner.

I don’t regret having my baby, I love her beyond measures but I do miss the days of just my husband and I. I even bought her baby ear muffs for hearing protection so we could go shooting and call coyotes. And no his father cannot watch her as I wouldn’t even trust him to watch my dogs. And any other family trustworthy to watch her lives 3+ hours away. Ugh, rant over. Sorry for the long post.