My heart aches while I’m writing this. My husband has suffered from depression his whole life. He goes through spells of ups and downs. Last time he was to the point of contemplating suicide so he reached out and got some help. The councilor only saw him twice and sense then won’t return any of his many emails for another appointment. Now, he feels like the councilor doesn’t like him or doesn’t want to hear from him so he’s completely opposed to going again. Here’s the thing -he can’t go anywhere else- there is no other option for him. He is military, they have one councilor on ship, that’s it.

These past few days/weeks he lays in bed and talks about how miserable he is. How he just wants to be done with everything. I KNOW IT IS NOT HIS FAULT. However I am allowed to have feelings too. When I’m around him I feel like I have to put on a show and be happy and convince him life is good. I’m so tired. I’m so so tired. My marriage is falling apart. Nothing I say works. he isn’t willing to try anymore and I can’t make him. I’m so desperate for any advice please help.