I think I'm out this month 😩

I had a mental breakdown this month because it's just heartbreaking hoping that you'll get a BFP every month and then nada. I told my husband that I feel like I'm failing him and I feel like my body is against me. this month I had brown spotting about 5-6 dpo, then brown spotting again 2 days before AF that only lasted for a few hours. well the witch was late, but tonight I am spotting again. I've done my research and I think I might either have PCOS or at least a hormonal imbalance. my periods are pretty regular except for these last 2 periods have been late, I've always had a fat, full face, it's literally impossible for me to lose my love handles (I was 116 pounds and wore a size 4/6 a year ago and I still had love handles 😔) , and I have black hairs growing by my sideburns, by my belly button, by my nipples, and one that always seems to grow on my chin. I have a Dr. appt on the 27th. I'm literally on the verge of just giving up with this whole baby making thing. it's the most frustrating thing I have ever had to endure 😥