Feeling the pressure

Laura • Straight edge, vegetarian, feminist, lover of animals.
I have been TTC for 4 months, while that's not actually that long it feels like forever. 
​3 weeks ago my mom got myself and all my sisters together( I have 4 sisters) sat us down and told us she had colon cancer. While it was upsetting, it wasn't exactly a death sentence. She told us on July 13th, it was pretty serious though because on Monday she had the tumor removed, which was the size of a large orange, 12 inches of her colon removed, and some lining of her stomach. 
​After surgery she again pulled us into her room and explained that while she was under they also found a tumor in her liver. They said it's not curable but manageable. 
​Last night, a day after her surgery she was crying that she will never see her babies have babies or she the grand kids she already has not grow up. 
​It makes me sick to my stomach thinking about my kids not growin up with a grandma
​i have a desperation to get pregnant and have a baby so she can't at least meet one. 
​I'm sorry for the rant
​But please send good, healing vibes
​And also baby dust