Just need to talk it out

Nicole
First of all I am so sorry if you too are going through a loss but I am just looking to talk to someone through this whole mess. I guess I'll start off at the beginning. We found out at the end of June we were expecting. We had just started really really trying so we were thrilled it happened so quickly. I had an early scan at my doctors around 6 weeks 4 days and it showed my little bean and his heartbeat. 5 days later I had some bad cramping in the middle of the night and when I woke up, I had a little spotting. It was a Saturday so my doctor sent me into the ER for a scan. Everything was fine and I saw the heart beat again and it had increase by 30 BPM. After that I had no problems what so ever. I started telling all of my close friends and family and everyone was ecstatic. Monday morning (10 weeks 2 days) I woke up to light pink spotting after a BM but that was normal and happened sometimes. We went out to breakfast and I saw bright red. Called my doctor and she had me come in for a scan. My baby had passed around7 weeks. Probably right after the ER visit. She gave me the three options and I chose the pills because I couldn't stand the thought of it taking weeks to happen naturally. I went home that night and researched the cytotec and read some pretty awful experiences with it so I was nervous to go through with it. I woke up at 2 am Tuesday morning bleeding pretty heavy and passed a couple clots. The next morning it was back to spotting so I took the pills about 11 am and prepared for an experience like I read about but nothing happened. My bleeding barely makes it to the pad so I am at a loss for what is going on.  At this point I just want it to all be over but I am waiting on a call back from my doctor. I knew a loss would be hard but never imagined it would be this tough physically and mentally. My family and friends have been God sent waiting on my and checking up on me but it would be nice to talk to someone that has gone through it as well. Thanks for hearing me out ladies.