I just feel so down. I know I haven't been trying that long. But it feels like everyone else gets pregnant within a few weeks of deciding they want to. Here I am charting and graphing and temping. Ugh. With nothing to show for it. It was really hard being at my OB GYN last week. I adore him, but an office full of happy preggos made me feel so out of place. My husband came with me and my doctor went on a little run down of how this all works. He made the comment, "and at 20 weeks...get there first...you would be referred to an MFM for anatomy scan." That whole get there first hit me. This all just seems like a pipe dream. He was so non chalant. You'll get pregnant too. But I don't believe him. I just don't see myself ever being one of those women. I feel like I'm broken and different. Honestly, so left out. And all the baby costume pics on Halloween drove it in deeper. Anyone else feeling this way? Seriously, if I ever got pregnant I'm not sure I would trust it. Like, I probably will assume it'll end in miscarriage. I just don't know how to navigate these feelings.