Do I allow myself to feel positive!

Donna

So I've been on this journey for 15 months now having my reversal August 2017. I was meant to have my hsg October 16th but 2 minutes into the procedure they had to stop as I started to bleed...devastated was not the word, I left In tears and am currently waiting to have it done again on 27th November. I don't normally ha e breakthrough bleeding like that and I'm normally regular with my periods even though I have recently been diagnosed with pcos. We used protection up to the 16th October as requested by the hospital but continued with unprotected intercourse on the 19th once the bleeding had stopped. I should have ovulated on the 17th so didn't think anything of it...I'm now 5 days late for my period, to scared to test In case it's another negative. I'm telling myself it can't be as we missed my fertile window....could I maybe have ovulated late? Could the break through bleed affect my ovulation? I just don't know. I don't want to test as whilst I don't know the dream is still here...if that makes sense...I can't face another negative. Sorry for the long post